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An example of what BDSM is not...

yes it's just my opinion

i believe from examples, i have been fortunate to witness online, that a BDSM relationship can be very loving and fulfilling relationship. based on respect for each other, mutual consent, honesty, trust, communication and for me, self awareness and growth. So last night when i was online a guy i know, not well just chatting online, sent me a text message. He calls me his fuck buddy, but he's one i actually haven't. so he asks me if i've fucked anyone lately? and i'm thinking... mmm nice way to say hello.... not! so i told him that i don't do that anymore that i'm doing something different with my life.... but here's how our conversation went last night:

EARL says:
BEEN FUCKED RECENTLY?
prteegrl says:
No I'm doing something different with my life
EARL says:
WHAT?
prteegrl says:
i'm learning about BDSM
EARL says:
you being the reciptant..../....sub....slave?
prteegrl says:
submissive
EARL says:
kool....i like a REAL Sub
EARL says:
you all healed up?
prteegrl says:
yes except for the dent and a hernia
EARL says:
WELL BE THANKFDULL YOU ARE CLOSER THAN YOU WERE
prteegrl says:
there's like a lot of scar tissue and a dip where't's healed
prteegrl .com says:
i am
EARL says:
understand
EARL says:
u lost more wieght
prteegrl says:
no
EARL says:
np
EARL says:
got a bf?
EARL says:
dom?
prteegrl says:
yeah it's called my pc
EARL says:
lmao
prteegrl says:
no too early for me to get a dom
prteegrl says:
i have a lot to learn
EARL says:
well u need a good man/dom to help you along
prteegrl says:
plus i'd like to know that person i choose to be my Master cares about me yes i know
EARL says:
true
prteegrl says:
just finding a nice one that i can talk to, trust, be honest with and have some feelings for me
prteegrl says:
oh and feel safe with
EARL says:
HI.....LOL
prteegrl says:
*smiles lol W/we don't even really know each other
prteegrl says:
EARL says:
you know in the lifestyle....most MASTERS have more than one s/s
prteegrl says:
yes but not all
EARL says:
say it
prteegrl says:
say what?
prteegrl says:
i'm getting sleepy
EARL says:
ok ....missed our chats....nite
prteegrl says:
what did you want to say?
EARL says:
i said it
prteegrl says:
ok well gn
EARL says:
GN
EARL says:
prteegrl says:
what's that?
EARL says:
HAND CUFFS
prteegrl says:
ohh for you?
EARL says:
no 4 you
prteegrl says:
you have handcuffs?
EARL says:
for those that deserve them
prteegrl says:
well leaves me out
EARL says:
why?
prteegrl says:
cause i don't deserve them
prteegrl says:
im good
EARL says:
if you are going to learn and serve you need them
prteegrl says:
you sure?
EARL says:
absolutely
prteegrl says:
lol
prteegrl says
so what have you been uo to?
EARL says:
work work and more work....lol
EARL says:
aand when not working here....jacking off and sleeping
prteegrl says:
least your busy
EARL says:
yeah
EARL says:
you?
prteegrl says:
so why haven't you fucked anyone recently? just doing my jewelry and chatting online n learning about BDSM
EARL says:
i did not say i had not fucked anyone...lol
prteegrl says:
lol
EARL says:
had several sluts
EARL says:
none satisying enough to keep
EARL says:
i do not want a lover i want serviced and respected
EARL says:
lover comes from that
prteegrl says:
do you think you'll ever find or you don't want one
EARL says:
yes i want but havent found one and not sure she is there
EARL says:
she has to be unconditionally obidient
EARL says:
totally s/s
prteegrl says:
r u looking for a slave?
EARL says:
willing to endure
EARL says:
yes and no
EARL says:
you know a woman that is looking for a gentle master?
prteegrl says:
*smiles i am but do you know where i can find one?
EARL says:
i am here
EARL says:
how young are you?
prteegrl says:
lol 30
EARL says:
nice
prteegrl says:
lol
EARL says:
willing to see your master with younger females?
EARL says:
i require lots of service
prteegrl says:
how young? and i want a one on one Master
EARL says:
ok
EARL says:
i like them all ages
EARL says:
if i have the right bitch....then that is all i will need
prteegrl says:
mmmwhy r u interested in me?
EARL says:
i have been
EARL says:
are you willing to totally submit
prteegrl says:
yes to the right one
EARL says:
no questions asked
EARL says:
endure all
EARL says:
?
EARL says:
do completely as told
prteegrl says:
endure what exactly?
EARL says:
physically and emotionally
prteegrl says:
what kind though
EARL says:
we are not talking the old fuck buddy routine here ...now
EARL says:
bindings ...clips....whipping
EARL says:
and more
EARL says:
verbal abuse
EARL says:
sexual compliance and submission
EARL says:
well?????
prteegrl says:
i'm not ready to mak a decision right now
EARL says:
not asking 4 one
EARL says:
but......... if you do then you do exactly what i want when i want you 2....not just talking sex
EARL says:
this is a lifestyle....a life comittment
EARL says:
no turning back
EARL says:
you will be reqistered and marked as mine
EARL says:
you probably do not know that requirement yet
prteegrl says:
if i make that choice

it was @ this point that i decided k i've wasted enough time listnening to this guy. he's obviously not what i would want for myself in a Master. in the back of my mind i have always been worried and concerned about ending up in an abusive relationship. and Earl's ideal of a BDSM relationship is not my ideal at all. i have a romanticized ideal of a BDSM relationship. i think it's beautiful to witness the online ceremonies. this morning i was moved by the emotions i felt i heard when bella submitted herself to become Saberdragon's slave. it really is wonderful to be apart of and witness events like that. i am contantly advised by friends to take my time in choosing my Master. to ask for what i want. to not settle for anything less. i have chosen to adhere to the advice given to me by these cherished and dear friends. *smiles big and dreams of someday meeting my own Prince Charming.....